Fall of a pseudo-perfectionist !!

Here is a story of an acquaintance, not a friend, which i believe is worth knowing. This is about a person called Balram (or Ballu in general). Ballu was a quite, sincere and shy boy in his childhood and the perfect child for the ladies in the neighbourhood. He was adored by everyone for his simple thoughts that used to make people from elder generations spellbound.

As a child, when his classmates used to mug their lessons to earn marks, Ballu used to take inspirations from the stories he had in his books. He used to feel quite ecstatic on a happy ending (like after reading the story of Sudha Chandran, the famous dancer), sad on reading a tragic story (like after reading the story of Shravan Kumar), used to take lessons from stories that had some message (like after reading the famous tale of Hare and Tortoise) and etc. Also since his early childhood, he came very close to Lord Rama, Laxman Ji and Hanuman Ji because of the different set of peculiar charateristics each for them had. Rama was known for his Justice, Laxman for his devotion to his brother and hanuman for his bhakti.

Though he was sincere as a person, he was not very serious about his studies because he was repellant to the idea of mugging lessons and reproducing same answers in the exam as dictated by his teachers. Irrespective of below par performances, he continued to have to his focus on the ultimate learning, of being a good human being with a sense of duty and judgement. In all, he always tried to be perfectionist in whatever he did.

There was something in Ballu that each person who knew him used to evaluate him in different shades. For some, he was sensitive, for some he was introvert, for some he was hard hearted, selfish etc. This is because he never projected an image of himself. He always used to do what he felt was right at that point of time, but obviously he was not Rama, so he got himself wrong quite a few times. Does this mean he used to take being wrong lightly??? Not at all, he was very stringent with himself and his actions. Anyone can check Ballu's hand, wrist and legs for the punishment he awarded to himself for anything wrong he had done. No friends, he was not a pyscho, what he always wanted to be was impartial.

This innocent boy, while growing up, developed some silly set of principles which eventually led to the downfall of Ballu. He never cheated anybody and never believed in "everything is fair in love and war". He never showed his back to his opponents and always fought till he could and accepted defeat (if at all) with a note of appreciation from his opponents. He used to feed the hungry and himself slept empty stomach, just out of love and sympathy for the people less fortunate than him. He saved money eating only 1 meal a day for more than 3 months just to make sure that he had enough money for an important work. Nobody has ever known if Ballu has ever been sad or in pain, not because he didnt experience it, but because he never wanted anyone to feel sad due to him. What he always wanted was a smile on everyone's face though not at the cost of principles.

Finally, poor Ballu sacrificed his life on a difficult crossroad of his life because he never wanted to compromise with the unholy and scruplous intentions of his associates. Please dont call him a coward. If he is a coward, then why do we sing songs of desh bhakti for Chandrasekhar Azad who refused to be caught alive by the British.

I request you all to join me in praying that he be absolved of all the sins he might have committed while safeguarding his principles and no one else should be held accountable for it.